Leaping Off Cliffs

It's been a while since I've even been on here and I suppose everything is gathering dust *achoo*

:)

But, I'm probably not gonna be updating for a while...and it feels sort of like deja vu because I've said this over and over...but just to like, say it again I suppose. I've just lost the will to WANT to update, and every once in a while I'll feel like I should update and then update like crazy...but what with school, and social life, home life...there's rarely a time for me to feel like I should.

I suppose I miss the days when my site was just a small wee little sapling and I didn't really worry about updating or what not. Wow, this blog is gonna be so unorganized but that's okay, I think I'll just start blogging again for the sake of blogging. Maybe just open a blog or something.

I checked my sitemeter and amazingly , I'm still getting some 11 visitors a day. WOW. I hope I can still somewhat help people with my tutorials.

As for my life...I recently confessed to a boy that I liked him :) The couple of days before I did the deed, I was obsessing about what he would say, how he would react, how things would be like afterwards. I felt so nervous, and giddy, that at any moment, I felt like I would puke. Being the curious person that I am...and also not wishing to get hurt...I set out to find out if he liked anyone. It turns out, that after my two friends and I asked him, he did like someone.

It seemed as if time had frozen on that bit. Yet, I breathed a sigh of relief. Knowing what his answer was going to be to me confessing, made the thought of confessing less daunting since I knew what would happen. And yes, I still went ahead and did. Before I did...my friend (being the wonderful person she is, and awfully talented at that) wrote me a poem.

HeartFirst

Off this cliff I'll take a leap,
and find out for myself if the water is deep.
Or if there are rocks waiting at the bottom instead,
But it's worth the risk,
it's better then knowing I fled.
No matter how hard it is,
I'll take this chance,
it's better knowing I tried,
than giving up on romance.
I need to know
and I need to see,
if this is all that we are,
or if there's more to you and me.

By Evelina W.

I've always compared confessing to jumping off a cliff blindfolded not knowing if there are rocks or water below...my one friend said there would be big fluffy clouds! Haha xD Those are your friends I suppose :)

So I confessed and we talked on the phone and that was that, it's not awkward, we're still friends, and he knows how I feel. That's all I ask for.

Next time though, everyone...when someone confesses to you, try and remember that it's extremely difficult to put yourself on the line like that. To deliberately make yourself vulnerable to hurt in the hopes that someone will reciprocate their feelings. Don't be mean, and cruel. If you don't feel the same way, say so, don't lead them on, if you do, OBVIOUSLY tell them :)