It's been a while since I've even been on here and I suppose everything is gathering dust *achoo*

:)

But, I'm probably not gonna be updating for a while...and it feels sort of like deja vu because I've said this over and over...but just to like, say it again I suppose. I've just lost the will to WANT to update, and every once in a while I'll feel like I should update and then update like crazy...but what with school, and social life, home life...there's rarely a time for me to feel like I should.

I suppose I miss the days when my site was just a small wee little sapling and I didn't really worry about updating or what not. Wow, this blog is gonna be so unorganized but that's okay, I think I'll just start blogging again for the sake of blogging. Maybe just open a blog or something.

I checked my sitemeter and amazingly , I'm still getting some 11 visitors a day. WOW. I hope I can still somewhat help people with my tutorials.

As for my life...I recently confessed to a boy that I liked him :) The couple of days before I did the deed, I was obsessing about what he would say, how he would react, how things would be like afterwards. I felt so nervous, and giddy, that at any moment, I felt like I would puke. Being the curious person that I am...and also not wishing to get hurt...I set out to find out if he liked anyone. It turns out, that after my two friends and I asked him, he did like someone.

It seemed as if time had frozen on that bit. Yet, I breathed a sigh of relief. Knowing what his answer was going to be to me confessing, made the thought of confessing less daunting since I knew what would happen. And yes, I still went ahead and did. Before I did...my friend (being the wonderful person she is, and awfully talented at that) wrote me a poem.

HeartFirst

Off this cliff I'll take a leap,
and find out for myself if the water is deep.
Or if there are rocks waiting at the bottom instead,
But it's worth the risk,
it's better then knowing I fled.
No matter how hard it is,
I'll take this chance,
it's better knowing I tried,
than giving up on romance.
I need to know
and I need to see,
if this is all that we are,
or if there's more to you and me.

By Evelina W.

I've always compared confessing to jumping off a cliff blindfolded not knowing if there are rocks or water below...my one friend said there would be big fluffy clouds! Haha xD Those are your friends I suppose :)

So I confessed and we talked on the phone and that was that, it's not awkward, we're still friends, and he knows how I feel. That's all I ask for.

Next time though, everyone...when someone confesses to you, try and remember that it's extremely difficult to put yourself on the line like that. To deliberately make yourself vulnerable to hurt in the hopes that someone will reciprocate their feelings. Don't be mean, and cruel. If you don't feel the same way, say so, don't lead them on, if you do, OBVIOUSLY tell them :)

As of now, school has started and I'm so busy it's crazy D; I barely even have time to go on facebook and check things out much have time to do the site....yes I've neglected it, yes I haven't replied to anyone...I'm so sick of saying sorry, but I feel bad so this is how things are...

I'm simply too busy to keep up the site. I won't kill it though, yes I know that's what you're thinking :P But no, I'm going to keep the site here because I know that I'm going to want to come back some time...just not at the moment...As for comments, I won't be replying back to comments (sorry~) so if you comment, don't expect anything back ):

If you do contact me otherwise (email, contact form) of course I'll still reply, and I'm still doing hostees :]

Anyways, to say I'll see you guys soon, I'm going to leave with some Textures & Stocks :D

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BOO! Are you scared? I think you would be since we've been so absolutely dead for such a long time~ I know, our bad, but we've been really caught up in everything else. So get ready to hear some excuses :D YAY~

• We ran off to vegas and had so much fun that we stayed there
• We couldn't get over our grief over Michael Jackson's death (I had always supposed that he would have died in bed or something...not like sleeping...but like...doing it :])
• We were both horribly sick with swine flu but now we're ALL BETTER :D
• Grad dresses (for Kay) take an awfully long time to find and that's what I've been doing the whole time I was gone
• Zoe has been busy writing a book (jks, it's only a short story...THAT'S SIX PAGES LONG)
• Uh...I was sleeping?
• Okay, and of course, my main reason for being away is I'm still horribly addicted to Audition, this online dance game. Oh yeah, it's true.

So anyways, due to all these perfectly reasonable excuses, I don't think that you guys have to be TOO mad at us eh? How about some reasurances, I, Kaye (yeah I like it with an E now, makes me sound mysterious) vows to have a new layout up by next week, and to start updating and replying back to comments again. It's because of summer (yes, lovely summer) that I now have so much time on my hands. The site WILL wake up from the dead, and before you know, I'll learn how to walk again. Lovely~

I won't bother replying back to all the comments from before posts, not cause I'm lazy (okay yeah because I'm lazy, but if I do...there's like 100+ comments that I haven't replied to I would totally lose the urge to continue the site if I were to do that so I'll just start fresh)

I'm extremely sorry to ALL AFFILIATES. I'm starting all over again, except for the ones who AMAZINGLY have NOT deleted us off their lists even though we've been gone oh...about 4 months. o_O

Talk about love <3

So all my hearts go out to Escape, Shini, Axi, Helene, & Gel

Thanks for sticking with us, really really, we won't forget, love love love you all~ And a sad goodbye to Jabed, who's website domain has expired, Ben who has moved to a new domain (congrats btw :D), and Kaytlyn who has a kickass layout :D

Someday I'll get around to replying to all those comments that people left before. But for now...a terminator quote:

I'll be back~

I've been pretty much glued to our new TV that my parents just bought ... oh yes its a 40 inch baby of pure awesomeness ^^ Everything is just sparkly and bright and ever seen Kung Fu Panda? With the TV you can see the different patches on his butt! Anyway I've just bought the new Batman ^^ hehe that's my Friday night lol. But everyone's been saying how the film is so it makes me even more anxious to see it now.

Apart from the TV what else have I loved? Ebay. I've just signed up and found the thrill of bidding. I know. I get easily get addicted to well anything really. I tried to control my bidding but I just can't stop. First it was a coat then it was a summer top then all the way to denim leggings. I can tell I'll be one of those women who are still paying off their credit card debt till they're about 80 .. or like the girl in Confessions of a Shopaholic (<< it's a great book btw hehe~ real funny)

Questions?
What was the last thing you ate?

Who was the last person you texted?

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Hey you guys Zoe here! Paper -rain has been pretty dead huh? I guess I'll have to say a sorry first due to laziness, I've not been on the site very much, it's been the same old same old, homework piling up and stuff :( Since you've probably heard about Kay's break, its just lil old me now for the time being XD I'm probably not as familiar with most of you as Kay but hey there's always a first time for everything ^^ Anyway the site should be getting some updates, I say (should) so I'll work hard towards that ;)

So how has everyone been? Why don't we have a catch up of the month we've missed? - So this April I've been obsessed with:

• Strawberry flavoured pocky ^^ (if you haven't tried it yet, you HAVE TO: it's the best essay- writing snack XD)
• Kim Bum, I know the name is a bit unfortunate in english but if you see his dimples you'll know why I *cough*fan-girl love*cough* him.
• Sitting on the grass and drinking apple juice.
• Oooo fruit juice
• Summer?
• Ham & cheese paninis <is that how you spell it?

Looking back on the list, food has been mentioned kinda alot. Now you know what's important in my life ^^ One of my friends asked me what I'd choose: a date with Hero Jaejoong or once-in-a-life-time meal at a 5* resturant - I said the meal. My friend said I need professional help hehe~

Back to the title, why have I put summer with a question mark? It's becauseI've been feeling really summery lately due to the real nice weather that's going on in England, but it keeps confusing me. In the morning is really chilly, like icy white breath chilly and in the afternoon is all heat-wavey O.o Maybe I'm too much of a drama queen? But people are going to get ill. So I feel like I don't know what I'm doing with my wardrobe, keep it winter? or bring out summer, so far I'm keeping it autumn .. lol.

Anywho, paper-rain is at least half alive ^^ hehe, look out for the new stuff that's coming ... XP

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